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Duality’s a bit of a tricky concept. I wanted to consider it in a way that would be addressed by one card, so I took this prompt as a cue for introspection.
Everybody contains a duality. There’s the kind of person you think you are, and the kind of person you are in the dark. While most people think of themselves as the protagonists of their story, they have the capability of being the antagonist for many others. I think I know myself pretty well, but how well do I know the darker recesses of my mind?
It feels a little navel-gazey, but it seemed like a useful thing to figure out. So, I shuffled the cards and I pulled…
Death has been, for me, an overwhelmingly positive card. Even by the imagery, it’s obvious it does not signify a literal death– just the death of the old. The primary figure trods the smaller figure underfoot, as if to make way for the offspring signified by their bulging belly. In the background, a tall ship sinks in an ocean beside a bustling factory.
I have to admit, I can agree with this. I have a tendency to seek out life changes– to become easily bored, crave changes of scenery, job, company. While it’s given me an exciting life, it is not one of my better attributes. I don’t regret most of the changes I’ve effected in my life, but there are times when I should have said, “Enough is enough.” My boredom and cravings for change and new beginnings are probably maladaptive at this point. Even without regretting the decisions I’ve made, I have occasionally looked back and wondered what would’ve happened if I’d stuck things out a little longer. Stayed in my old apartment instead of moving to a new house. Stayed in Delaware a little longer.
I need to dig in more.