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I was supposed to do day two’s post yesterday. I didn’t.
My brain was too full and my heart was too sore to focus the way I should for a tarot reading. Besides, taking the time to get into the right mental state and prepare myself to do one would have taken me away from things that I felt were more important. There’s a lot of organizing to do, a lot of signal-boosting, a lot of safety nets to create. A tarot post didn’t really feel like it ranked.
Today I’m a little calmer. A little less full of white-hot rage. Today, I’m going to try to keep on keeping on.
Perhaps fittingly, the theme for days two and three are Light and Shadow.
I wasn’t able to take a picture from my own deck, but I pulled The Magician and the Four of Swords. Interesting.
When I was first learning to read cards, The Magician was described to me as a quasi-trickster figure. Not malicious or a prankster, perhaps, but a “Watch me pull a rabbit out of my ass!” character. Clever, capable, able to make things happen. A figure who takes action with skill, knowledge, and a keen intellect. The kind of figure I need to be right now if I am going to find a light in this darkness.
The Four of Swords in the Deviant Moon tarot depicts a beautiful figure laying beneath the earth. One sword is buried beside them, three others are plunged into the earth above. The figure is surrounded by red roses, still vibrant, but their clothing is in rotting tatters. The Four of Swords represents contemplation and passivity. The exact traps I need to avoid if I am going to be effective right now. Now isn’t the time for me to become restful and relaxed. There is no time for recuperation
So, there you have it. Light and shadow. The Magician and The Four of Swords. Admittedly, I didn’t really know what I was asking my deck at first. I started shuffling partly because I felt more up to doing a Tarot challenge today, and partly because it kept my hands busy and my mind focused on something other than everything else going on right now. When I finally felt a question bubble up through the chaos, it was, “What will help me see the Light through this? And what will keep the Shadow away?”
I guess the course is pretty clear.