I mean, for me, it kind of depends on which name you mean.
Sure, numerology is a thing. Some people like calculating the values for their name, birth date, and other assorted life data. The trouble is, sometimes knowing the circumstances of your name can make things feel a little… muddier.
My name is Jessica. (It’s long for Jecca.) Various people have called me Jess (because it’s the most common nickname for it), Jecca (because it’s my nickname), or Jessie (because they’re my octogenarian grandfather). But this wasn’t always my name.
While I was still in the larval stage, my name was going to be Chérie Nicole. This was because it was unique, my mother thought it was pretty, and my family has Quebecois and Acadian roots going all the way back to the day those became places someone could be from. Unfortunately, she also knew that, as I was scheduled to be dropped on Long Island, the people who wouldn’t end up pronouncing it “Cherry” or “Shari” numbered somewhere in the fractions of a percent. (This was the same woman who wanted to teach me French letters and nursery rhymes first, reasoning that, because of cultural immersion, I’d end up speaking perfect English anyway. Had we not lived in an area affectionately called Little Portugal, she may have been correct.)
It also didn’t help that my dad didn’t like it. Or anything else that was suggested, really.
Genvieve? No, not that.
Name me after one of my grandmothers? No way.
In the end, less than an hour before my birth certificate listed my first name as “Female,” I became Jessica instead. Depending on who you ask, this is because:
- It was easy to pronounce and not likely to result in me getting the shit kicked out of me at recess, or
- It was the name of the dam of a horse that won on my birthday.
My middle name was arbitrarily chosen.
Is my name an accident? Maybe, maybe not. I don’t particularly care for it or use it much, so I don’t know what kind of impact it’s purported to have on my life. What about the names I almost was?
Do you use numerology? What have your experiences been like?